Well, I am a few days into some changes that have been made.
There are mixed feelings here on this new path....these changes have been tried in the past, this time it's different, better. I actually feel a sense of relief this time and hope that going back will not happen again.
Since these changes, I have slept better. Actually Im somewhat of a night owl, so Im up late and usually don't sleep very much. Since a few days ago, I have gone to bed earlier and slept more, and better.
God is good in His promises. I have great hope in these promises and look forward to another day of walking with Him.
"When you lie down, you will not be afraid, when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet." Proverbs 3:24 NIV
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Monday, October 24, 2011
In the quiet....
I have been house sitting for some very dear friends while they are away in Kentucky. They don't have cable, so I think I have watched every movie they seemed to have already. Most of my days thus far have been sitting in the quiet of the house, thinking.
Back to my first post, I know there is a time for everything. Sitting in the quiet must be it right now.
I think of the past, the present and the future. I ponder on why certain things come to pass and certain others don't. Sometimes I find answers, most times I don't.
I'm beginning to see that the things I most long for in life are to be found in this quietness. That embrace that makes me feel safe is here, the realization that LOVE is all around and never changing. It follows me, protects me, and gives me hope for tomorrow.
Im learning, through all of this quiet, that change is eminent. We can never escape it, it will find us by any means possible. The more we resist the worse it is.
I know myself pretty well to know not to resist anymore.
So as I sit here in the quiet, I welcome the changes, accept the embrace and let LOVE just love me.
Back to my first post, I know there is a time for everything. Sitting in the quiet must be it right now.
I think of the past, the present and the future. I ponder on why certain things come to pass and certain others don't. Sometimes I find answers, most times I don't.
I'm beginning to see that the things I most long for in life are to be found in this quietness. That embrace that makes me feel safe is here, the realization that LOVE is all around and never changing. It follows me, protects me, and gives me hope for tomorrow.
Im learning, through all of this quiet, that change is eminent. We can never escape it, it will find us by any means possible. The more we resist the worse it is.
I know myself pretty well to know not to resist anymore.
So as I sit here in the quiet, I welcome the changes, accept the embrace and let LOVE just love me.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Fire from within
Ever since I was 16 years old I can remember the feeling of being on fire for God.
This feeling of wanting to shout it at the top of my lungs and to everyone I knew and didn't know, that Jesus died for them and loves them.
I am finding that the more I dig deeper into God's word and the more I try to apply His word to my life in every situation, the more I want to shout again.....JESUS DIED FOR YOU, HE LOVES YOU, RECEIVE HIM NOW!!!!
There is an urgency in these feelings for me....I know people, ones that are very close to me that I love dearly, they need this message. When you're that close to someone it's hard to get the messages across without portraying yourself as high and mighty. People that close to us know our faults and failures, so sending a message of hope and healing and love through Jesus Christ, doesn't always come through that way.
I pray that through my actions it can speak louder than my words ever could.
Change me Jesus that my actions drowned out my words from my past, that the future of those I love dearly be changed, and personal relationships with You be made possible.
This feeling of wanting to shout it at the top of my lungs and to everyone I knew and didn't know, that Jesus died for them and loves them.
I am finding that the more I dig deeper into God's word and the more I try to apply His word to my life in every situation, the more I want to shout again.....JESUS DIED FOR YOU, HE LOVES YOU, RECEIVE HIM NOW!!!!
There is an urgency in these feelings for me....I know people, ones that are very close to me that I love dearly, they need this message. When you're that close to someone it's hard to get the messages across without portraying yourself as high and mighty. People that close to us know our faults and failures, so sending a message of hope and healing and love through Jesus Christ, doesn't always come through that way.
I pray that through my actions it can speak louder than my words ever could.
Change me Jesus that my actions drowned out my words from my past, that the future of those I love dearly be changed, and personal relationships with You be made possible.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Whispers....
How do you hear God?
I'm having a conversation with God all day long.
Sometimes I talk to much (I guess I need to practice the time to be quiet huh?), sometimes I have the conversation in my head and I just listen. Most of the time what I hear are whispers.
Little small comments whispered in my ear, telling me the answer to the question I have just asked.
Common sense answers really, obvious answers. This has happened to me ever since I started praying, so for a very long time. I have concluded that these whispers, are God speaking to me through the Holy Spirit.
These whispers really are what I hold onto, they are the answers to the big stuff as well as the small stuff.
Through these whispers decisions have been made. Crazy decisions, hard decisions, easy decisions.
I know through prayer and whispers where my path with take me, sort of. We can't know everything.
I have a friend who posted a comment that said God has shown her part of what He's doing for her. That's exciting! We can't know everything, but God is gracious enough to reveal parts of His plan. Just enough to keep us excited and hopeful for the end result.
I have confirmation through prayer that a trip to Haiti is in my near future. Im preparing for it now.
Small steps, but steps regardless. Through all of the whispers, I know this is where I need to go.
I know it probably sounds crazy, a bit impractical, but isn't that what God wants us to do. Who He wants us to be. The out of the ordinary people doing His work for His kingdom. Jesus has Crazy Love for us, we should have Crazy Love for His people all over the world.
So, my path is set for Haiti. Thank you God for the whispers in my ear, don't stop.
I'm having a conversation with God all day long.
Sometimes I talk to much (I guess I need to practice the time to be quiet huh?), sometimes I have the conversation in my head and I just listen. Most of the time what I hear are whispers.
Little small comments whispered in my ear, telling me the answer to the question I have just asked.
Common sense answers really, obvious answers. This has happened to me ever since I started praying, so for a very long time. I have concluded that these whispers, are God speaking to me through the Holy Spirit.
These whispers really are what I hold onto, they are the answers to the big stuff as well as the small stuff.
Through these whispers decisions have been made. Crazy decisions, hard decisions, easy decisions.
I know through prayer and whispers where my path with take me, sort of. We can't know everything.
I have a friend who posted a comment that said God has shown her part of what He's doing for her. That's exciting! We can't know everything, but God is gracious enough to reveal parts of His plan. Just enough to keep us excited and hopeful for the end result.
I have confirmation through prayer that a trip to Haiti is in my near future. Im preparing for it now.
Small steps, but steps regardless. Through all of the whispers, I know this is where I need to go.
I know it probably sounds crazy, a bit impractical, but isn't that what God wants us to do. Who He wants us to be. The out of the ordinary people doing His work for His kingdom. Jesus has Crazy Love for us, we should have Crazy Love for His people all over the world.
So, my path is set for Haiti. Thank you God for the whispers in my ear, don't stop.
Monday, October 17, 2011
A Time for Everything
"For everything there is a season,
a time for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace."
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
Skipping to verse 10 and 11
"I have seen the burden God has placed on us all. Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God's work from beginning to end."
Looking over these verses, it's hard for me to pick out what the time for me is. I think its safe to say it's always a time to love and hate, and being a woman I think it's always a time to speak. Hence the creation of this blog. And if I had any stones I'm not sure that I would be scattering them, they might get thrown instead.
I really do love the whole book of Ecclesiastes, it's about being human, and trying to figure out what it is we are to do in our lives, where are we suppose to go and why. Solomon was a wise man, I could read this book a million times over and come away with a different perspective each time. Amazing.
Personal turmoil, whether one has a relationship with Jesus or not, always makes us take a step back and evaluate our lives. Questions always come when we do that. Why did this happen? Have I wasted my time? What am I suppose to do now? I say read Ecclesiastes, you just might discover some answers.
I know that God has plans for me, it says it in Jeremiah 29:11. God wants us to prosper, His plans are for good. When we can't possibly find any good in what has just happened, God can. He knows everything.
I choose to trust Him, wholeheartedly. I know that wont be easy, it never is. I will give it my best shot and see where I am on the other side when all is said and done.
There are personal changes in the making, plans that God is revealing to me and preperations being made so that these plans can be carried out. Its all a bit exciting to think about, and some what scary at the same time. Have you ever thought of doing something or an event happening in your life but you can't really see it happening at all, then some things you can? For me, its the crazy things I see coming to fruition. A missions trip to Haiti, definitely see that in the works for the not so distant future. Marriage, I can't even fathom that thought. Once again, God has a plan. Putting my selfish human side aside and letting His plan unfold and become the wonderful blessing that He has in store is the struggle. I know I'm not alone in that struggle, and with God's grace and mercy, I can overcome it.
More children? Who knows what God will do in Haiti. Like it says in verses 10 and 11, we can't see all God has planned out, but it is beautiful, in its own time.
a time for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace."
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
Skipping to verse 10 and 11
"I have seen the burden God has placed on us all. Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God's work from beginning to end."
Looking over these verses, it's hard for me to pick out what the time for me is. I think its safe to say it's always a time to love and hate, and being a woman I think it's always a time to speak. Hence the creation of this blog. And if I had any stones I'm not sure that I would be scattering them, they might get thrown instead.
I really do love the whole book of Ecclesiastes, it's about being human, and trying to figure out what it is we are to do in our lives, where are we suppose to go and why. Solomon was a wise man, I could read this book a million times over and come away with a different perspective each time. Amazing.
Personal turmoil, whether one has a relationship with Jesus or not, always makes us take a step back and evaluate our lives. Questions always come when we do that. Why did this happen? Have I wasted my time? What am I suppose to do now? I say read Ecclesiastes, you just might discover some answers.
I know that God has plans for me, it says it in Jeremiah 29:11. God wants us to prosper, His plans are for good. When we can't possibly find any good in what has just happened, God can. He knows everything.
I choose to trust Him, wholeheartedly. I know that wont be easy, it never is. I will give it my best shot and see where I am on the other side when all is said and done.
There are personal changes in the making, plans that God is revealing to me and preperations being made so that these plans can be carried out. Its all a bit exciting to think about, and some what scary at the same time. Have you ever thought of doing something or an event happening in your life but you can't really see it happening at all, then some things you can? For me, its the crazy things I see coming to fruition. A missions trip to Haiti, definitely see that in the works for the not so distant future. Marriage, I can't even fathom that thought. Once again, God has a plan. Putting my selfish human side aside and letting His plan unfold and become the wonderful blessing that He has in store is the struggle. I know I'm not alone in that struggle, and with God's grace and mercy, I can overcome it.
More children? Who knows what God will do in Haiti. Like it says in verses 10 and 11, we can't see all God has planned out, but it is beautiful, in its own time.
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